June 1st is right around the corner - fresh month, fresh start.

Today is hot as hot can be out there and I'm sick as a dog.  Let's hope this is not indicative of the month to come.
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rough calorie count for the day:

brekkie 360 (2 cups cereal), 110 (1 cup milk), fruit @ work 100 ='s 570

lunch 800 (gyro based on pita pit)
h20, h20 and more water = 0
left over for dinner ='s approximately 630

Edit:  Hang on!  I have 630 if I want to maintain...I need to reduce my calories to lose weight.  1 lb is 3500 calories.  Which means 500 calories less (OR burn) per day to lose weight.

So in reality, I only have 1500 calories to play with / day AND only 230 for tonights dinner.

Bummer dude.

I can cook!  And it was delicious.  

 

quickly became...

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This takes a lot of guts...  

PICTURES REMOVED - MAY 2012

The pictures are horrid.  HORRID.

But that is ok.  Every journey needs to start some where.  

I just happen to be starting out in HORRIDVILLE.

I do have measurements.  But they are buried for now.

Back to accountability. 
M - nuttin
T - 1/2 hr bike ride flat with hills, walked the dogs
W - 24 min bike ride very hilly, walked the dogs, gardened
Th - walked the dogs, 20 min walk at work
Food has been terrible.  So has beverage consumption.

Almost like I'm training for Ironman.  Not one thing active this long weekend.  Very similar to last year around this time...

Wow.  I slept for 15 hours.  Plus an hour nap during the day.  Who am I????

Lines of Happiness:

Sunday:

·         Pleased as punch with the ‘Store Opening’ gift that we bought

·         Nothing finer than a chai tea and chocolate on a rainy cold afternoon

Monday:

·         The Hill of Trillums this morning brightened my day.  Actually made me smile

·         The pigeons on the bridge ledge were a fine sight on an otherwise stark highway

Been a machine lately.  Chores around the house, gardening, tackling DIY frugal projects.

No running lately, but have been active in other ways.  I figure I have until July to continue my running break IF I continue with the weights, biking and healthy living.

I had beer last night and it has carried over to this morning.  Feeling a bit sluggish.  I am happy to be paying attention to my habits.  Is it routine or is it what I want...totally makes a difference.

Off to scope the 'front entrance' project.  Project Curb Appeal is on!

Not gonna lie.  I could have kept sleeping this morning.  I am exhausted after this weekend.  It was a combination of work, play, errands and gardening.  I am now ‘officially’ tuckered.  The last thing I wanted to do was get up and go biking this morning.

But we did. 

Only about 13 k but it was a nice way to start the week while incorporating one hill climb.

Happy with the healthy eating stint.  Well ok, eating the chocolate bar wasn’t the best choice but it sure was enjoyable.  So the official count is 2 Steelers, a 4oz serving of wine & a chocolate bar.  Considering the amount of movement that happened this weekend…that is more than acceptable J

PS  Giant Roam XR-2.  That is what I am saving my pennies for….

So.  No champers Friday.  Had a nice evening out for wings and orange blossom tea.

Saturday was the busiest day I can remember in recent history BUT I enjoyed every single minute of it.  Got so much accomplished AND it finished with 2 pints on the deck.  I enjoyed every.  single.  sip.

Booyah!

So.  Day 11 of being healthy.  Better eating and no drinking.  No drinking ONLY because I haven't felt like one.  Have totally been in situations where the norm or the routine was to have one...but when I stopped to really think about it.  I didn't want one. Brilliant, huh?!

However, tonight is a different story.  After many, many, many years, Stj is done his schooling.  Received his final mark and he now has his degree in B. Comm. and CGA designation.  That is champers worthy...
Wonder if I'll hit Day 12?!

Bullet point update:
(oooops! This was typed up on Tuesday but not posted!)

• Weights yesterday after a 4 week hiatus ~ sore today!
• Planned on going to a spin class this morning with Stj
• Buried my head under a pillow when the alarm went off at 5am
• Ended up going (at Stj’s urging) for a 10k bike ride this morning in the rain & cold ~ LOVED IT

•  Guess husbands sometimes do know best
• Love how I feel the most frumpy & lumpy in years and yet the scale is at its lowest in months
• Starting to get over the Oliver Tragedy
•  Not that I don’t miss him & worry about him…but coming to terms that is was the right thing to do          
• Reading The Happiness Project

                                                                                                                            Day 8

Fell off the workout wagon during the month of April.  I didn't become a total slug...but I wasn't very committed either.

So in preparation for a new month; ended up with a nice 10k under my belt on Saturday and a quick yoga session today...

day 6

As I'm sure you've noticed, I've been down in the dumps lately.  So I think it's funny that I went to get my hair cut tonight and my hairdresser had written on her mirror;  "I want my life to be..."

Our conversation during the cut revolved around her open ended statement and her reading of 'Til Debt Do Us Part'.  Thought provoking and right where my state of mind is right now.

I want my decisions to be conscious and fulfil me.  I want balance.  I want freedom.  I want to recognize the good that surrounds me on a daily basis.  I want to be healthy.  I want to surround my self with positivity.

I have a lot of work to do in order to do all of the above consistently...

After the cut, I went to the library.  Found a book on money, how to de-clutter & stow and 3 magazines about running.  All where my head space is at.  Took the 3 pups on a stroll and admired the sunset against the bright blue sky and racing clouds.  Making me realize that Spring is on it's way (about the frick time!) and how lucky we were in today's raging windstorm.  My 3 k wind sprint training took on a whole new meaning this morning!

Day 3

So.  I sold Oliver.

And I feel terrible.

I think I made a big mistake.

I know that I stated for the past 6 months that we should sell him.  That it was silly to have 3 bikes.  3 bikes that weren't equal.  Someone was always being left behind.  Neither of us will ever become mountain bikers that would use Oliver the way he was intended or push him to his full capabilities.

He was a misguided purchase from the get go.

However.  Having said all of that.  I feel like I let a friend down.  Oliver was there for me over the past 3 years.  He started with me on my road to Ironman.  I took him to the first month of triathlon training sessions.  He saved my sanity on multiple occasions last summer, when the last thing I wanted to do was hop on that f@cking road bike one more time.  He was busted out and gave me a totally different experience while still letting me get in my saddle time.  I loved his shock system.  How cushy the ride was.  The width of his handlebars.  The addition of the L grips.  He was a sweet slow ride...

I shouldn't have taken him out, hours before he was sold.  It was a good last ride.  A ride that has filled me with doubts that I did the right thing.  So what if he was only used 5 or 6 times a year?  I know I don't want to ride a road bike for all my rides.  It's not like we didn't have the space to store him...

I know it's ridiculous.  I did extremely well on the sale, recouping almost 75% of his original cost.  But it's like the 'Ikea Lamp Commercial'...

He's gone to a 13 year old boy.  I worry that he won't be cared for the way we would have... and yet I hope he gets used frequently and the way he was truly intended.  Where 'off roading' means much more than a ride on the Rail Trail.

So in the end...

='s  and a few tears.


And yes.  I do realize that this is a bike I'm talking about.  I am trying to put some perspective around this...it may just take me a few days.

I should be happy.

I have 3 animals that love me
I have husband who makes me smile
I have a house in a beautiful location
I have a job with a steady income
I have a car that I like
I have my health
I have my family

So why aren't I happy?

I need a purpose
I need a goal
I need to stop drinking / eating unhealthy
I need a job that fulfils me
I need to stop day dreaming that winning a lottery will make it all better
I need some sun

Dear Internet.
I'm not happy.
Love,
Lesley

1 month between posts.  That will never do.

• AtheB done
• P2A done
• trip to san diego done
• lots of rest done

Jacked my back during a fall at km 19 in AtheB.  Haven't been right since.  Will work on a more compressive post...

Holy smokes.  No posting since March 12^th…Lemme see what I can remember

S - off

M - weights

T – speed work

W - off

Th – Weights, work and flight

F – walk ‘The Mall’, walk the museums, walk around all the monuments

Sa – more walk, walk, walk + sunburn

S – flight home & in bed by 6.30 pm

M – 20 minute trainer

T – lazy morning hanging with puppies and detailing car, driveway clean up in the evening

W – speed work b/c weight partner bailed due to snow storm

Th – 30 minutes trainer

Project lose weight?  Yah, let’s not go there and the 30k AtheB is this weekend.  That should be fun.  Totally not trained or prepared for it. 

Week in Review:
M - free weights
T - treadmill speed work
W - 15 mins trainer
Th - off
F - free weights
Sa - 29 k run
Sa night - exhausted

Alrighty then.  I've been great on the posting at least 3 times a week.  Not bad at following the schedule (at least a very modified schedule).

And....drum roll please?!  3 lbs down.  Finally.

I'm off to convince myself I want to go do 5 k speedwork on the dreadmill...